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Intensity
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Registered: May 2002
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Schizophrenia
Hi People!
Herewith I want to say sorry for my strange post about a hunger-strike some time ago, also for my weird behaviour towards the dutch group Xenon where I was in as musician.
Sander/Focus, Gerard Hultink: Please excuse my messages in which I declared Xenon as a dangerous group and that you should be aware of it's members.
The reason for this behaviour is that I fell ill. They call my illness "Schizophrenia", also "Psychosis", a disease which initiated a lot of paranoid thoughts in me. I also started to hear voices from my circle of acquaintances and to see hallicunations, like faces at the wall etc. Those voices and hallucinations ordered me to stay up the nights for about 4 months and to care about scene matters, among other things.
I have passed some months in hospital and I take several medicaments for about one year now. Things are going well, also have a job now.
I don't want you to have a pity on me, but I want the sceners especially those I bothered to excuse me.
Read more about my schizophrenia in Vandalism News #40 which was released recently.
http://c64.rulez.org/onslaught/vandalism40.zip
Yours,
Arman Behdad
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chatGPZ
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i'm the only normal person, everyone else is insane. |
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Wile Coyote
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I have ups and downs and can be obsessive at times, always thinking about the same thing. This can be a good thing if used in the right way, and a bad thing if it gets out of control. When i used to ride a BMX, it was all i could think about. All day at school thinking about the end of it just so i could hit the local BMX track and meet with others that were always at the BMX track, thus making them like me. Then theres music, i get to like a new band and i have to have all their albums, otherwise things just don't feel right. Then there's the c64, my pictures, drawing one picture and always thinking about the next one (i've stopped that now, took over 10 years though). Making movies is the new drug for me, when will it ever end, oh the torcher. Thats life i guess ;) |
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Optimus
Registered: Jan 2002
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Intensity: Great, that would be interesting for me to read!
As about normality, my brother started to beleive that everyone around his place has gone nuts and now he feels more "normal" than the average ;)
An important reason that breeds depression is the fact that we are unable to reach what is called happiness, which is actually a very subjective idea, made up into our brains as we've grown up. At least that's my theory.. |
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Wanderer
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*hands out copious amounts of Paxil and Xanax to the room*
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Slartibartfast
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Quote: *hands out copious amounts of Paxil and Xanax to the room*
:)
That's not funny. |
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Laxity
Registered: Aug 2005
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Quote: I think everybody is weird,one way or the other.
But ´normal´ people are by far the strangest I´ve met.
I find it hard to connect, when it´s all about TV,kids,cars and football. ;)
I know EXACTLY how you feel..
In fact I find the term "normal" annoying, too abstract and too narrow.. "Normal" is just an avarage of "everything"... It's like downsampling a 44Khz song to 8Khz.. It's the same music, but it sounds like crap.
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Moloch
Registered: Jan 2002
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Quote: i'm the only normal person, everyone else is insane.
Copyright (C) Moloch!!1!
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Krill
Registered: Apr 2002
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Quote: Intensity: Great, that would be interesting for me to read!
As about normality, my brother started to beleive that everyone around his place has gone nuts and now he feels more "normal" than the average ;)
An important reason that breeds depression is the fact that we are unable to reach what is called happiness, which is actually a very subjective idea, made up into our brains as we've grown up. At least that's my theory..
I once read that happiness is determined by the difference of what you expect to what you actually achieve. A simple example for that are poor people who more or less get accidentally rich are most probably much happier than somebody who is a kid of rich parents, getting richer and richer throughout his life, but always being envious of even richer people.
So never expect too much! :D |
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TDJ
Registered: Dec 2001
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Quote: I once read that happiness is determined by the difference of what you expect to what you actually achieve. A simple example for that are poor people who more or less get accidentally rich are most probably much happier than somebody who is a kid of rich parents, getting richer and richer throughout his life, but always being envious of even richer people.
So never expect too much! :D
So basically what you're saying is that you'll be much happier if you win a demo compo with the group you founded yourself, than join an already-famous group and win with them? ;-) |
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Optimus
Registered: Jan 2002
Posts: 122 |
Mmm,. I guess I have to agree with both :)
It's nice and relaxing doing small stuff but much more greater if it was ever possible to achieve something extremely hard. At least, when I put a very big scene project anymore, I have said to myself to be aware of my vainglory behind that and just not take my decision much seriously, perhaps I can even accept to abandon my big project later and use my finished code for smaller projects ;). I am open for both options I guess. (the perfectionist but lazy guy ;P)
Also, about normal/average: http://www.rawilson.com/csicon.shtml which is a funny parody of CSICOP and has a nice analysis of why "normal" doesn't make any sense :) |
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