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SIDWAVE
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Registered: Apr 2002
Posts: 2238 |
End of depression 1989-2010
I want to explain that a new era has begun, to all who are my friends in the scene, close or distant, because it is important for me.
Here goes the dump, and it should explain all weird stuff about my behavior in last 2 years, which has been a long and painfull process:
[19:17] <janh> [19:14] <janh> my father fucked my life for 39 years, because he told me i was nothing and could do nothing, and my computer was a waste of time, and he never supported me in any way, and now i dont hear from him anymore, because i told him how he fucked up, and brother dennis did too, so the only left is devia, who he didnt fuck
[19:17] <janh> [19:15] <janh> my father has only heard 1 tune i made, and dont even ask if he can get more. he dont care. its sad
[19:17] <janh> [19:15] <janh> he dont care a fucking shit, because i was an accident and he had to marry my mother
[19:17] <janh> [19:15] <janh> so they got divorced in 1989
[19:17] <janh> [19:16] <janh> thi sis not bitter talk, this is just the explanation what went wrong for me
[19:17] <janh> [19:16] <janh> just so you understand what i had to endure
[19:17] <janh> [19:16] <janh> now its released, it dont play any role anymore, its over, done
[19:18] <janh> end of depression!
[19:18] <janh> finally
so.. now you know |
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Moloch
Registered: Jan 2002
Posts: 2914 |
\o\ |o| /o/
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JackAsser
Registered: Jun 2002
Posts: 2014 |
Tragic! I hope you will stay healthy Jan and wish you good luck in the rest of your life. |
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Street Tuff
Registered: Feb 2002
Posts: 88 |
make a demo about it! |
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Danzig
Registered: Jun 2002
Posts: 434 |
my parents are fuxxor, too, jan. you can't help it, it's not your fault. neither it's mine. hell, yeah, let's make a demo about it: seij-sagg from OPS (Our Parents Suck).
Sleepless nights in the past thinking about what I might have done wrong. But I can't find the answer.
Finally I have my own 3 children and you can ask them: I don't suck as a father!
Just keep yourself up, your experiences with you father gives you the power to be a better man, a better human and a real friend for others. Watch from the opposite: It made you the person you are today: an appreciated deepminded human. I'm looking forward to drink some beers with you at X2010. So long, pal. |
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AüMTRöN
Registered: Sep 2003
Posts: 44 |
I have no parents anymore. Any chicks wanna mother me...?
EDIT: and when i say "mother", i mean bathing me in milk/honey/hash... :shrug: |
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El Topo
Registered: Jun 2006
Posts: 43 |
Keep up the vibes Jan! I saw your tutorials about SDI on the tube and they ruled! |
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Jon
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Registered: Apr 2005
Posts: 247 |
Moloch: WORD UP!
:D
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The Phantom
Registered: Jan 2004
Posts: 360 |
Jan,
My father was brutal. Never supported anything I did, even when I was making more money than he ever did. He always found a way around his own stupidity to put me, and others not like him down. He was a true hater of everything and anyone not like him.
My mother passed away 6 years ago, and I seriously wish he did, instead of her as she was my best friend. I found it unfair that someone as great as she was, die before someone as hateful as him. I have finally, this year, come to accept that people die. I still cry on her birthday and remember her on mine.
To date, I still want nothing to do with my father as he is the same person, just older and more set in his selfish ways.
Let the healing process begin Jan. I wish you the best in dealing with your pain and if you need to talk, know that I am here for you.
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Mr. SID
Registered: Jan 2003
Posts: 424 |
GROUP HUG! |
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TDJ
Registered: Dec 2001
Posts: 1879 |
Quoting Mr. SIDGROUP HUG!
Thank you but no - the last time I had one of those with sceners my wallet was picked. |
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Mace
Registered: May 2002
Posts: 1799 |
Jan, glad you're able to make another step.
This calls for more celebration at X!
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Jazzcat
Registered: Feb 2002
Posts: 1044 |
Indeed. It will be great to share some beers Jan. Maybe after enough some SID-dancing. :D |
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Rough
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Registered: Feb 2002
Posts: 1829 |
My father is in jail in Argentinia currently. No kidding. Nothing serious, just some economy crime. Still: 8-( |
