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Bamu®
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Registered: May 2005
Posts: 1332 |
Open letter to ALL!
Hi!
I leave the csdb/forum & Co. I sometimes/often really behaved like a stupid or whatever...
And to be honest: Yes, somehow I'm stupid. Don't know why, can't help - that's how I'm. :(
It seems that I really have some mental problems. (Thanks to people for pointing this out)
I don't know what's wrong with me in last time. I really don't know!
I do things witch I shouldn't do..
It get's harder & harder from day to day to make music or something serious. My brain get's emptier & emptier.
I know, do have to change something, but this isn't easy...
... guess, I finally should grow up & consult a doctor.
First I thought that I could make a restart with my new handle bamu (babbling musician), but I was unable to take me under control - sorry. I have to say that I really hate all my handles.
I really don't want to post/do *shit* or similar, but the truth is I'm unable to recognize what is shit or not. Really, I don't know the correct scene-behaviour.
I never wanted to harm people, but I guess it happened sometimes.
Often I was right, and often I was wrong, but too much happened here and in the scene.
I'm really fed up with everything (not only scene) and the first thing I'll do is to stop all my activities & start a real life.
I really whish if it was possible to erase my scene history from my brain - it really makes me sick.
I do not want a second chance, it's to late for me.
But:
I want to apologize for EVERYTHING I have done/or said.
Please, forgive me! Please!
My request now:
Please remove (or hide) the most crap postings from me. This would make me a happy. I really want that csdb gets a clean database/forum.
sincerely,
/st |
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Trazan
Registered: Apr 2002
Posts: 620 |
Snif - this was the best thing I read since I last did check my taxreturns and balance on the stock market.
Bye Bye! |
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Intensity
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Registered: May 2002
Posts: 337 |
Really BRAVE of you Nata! Reminds me of my own post in Schizophrenia
At least I forgive you m8. Get well soon!
You are not the only one with such a problem!
Yours,
Arman |
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Platoon
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Registered: Mar 2004
Posts: 40 |
well never had any beef with you bamu & i think people here should give you a second chance...
especially if you mean it serious what you wrote above! |
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Jon
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Registered: Apr 2005
Posts: 247 |
Well, if you decide to start a "real life" and leave the "scene" as it is, I hope you take a more positive approach to it than you have here.
In it's simplest form, you were chased away by mere text on a screen. That's a pity, and I have seen it before here and on other forums.
Remember: don't let yourself get chased away from things you like or enjoy. Don't be afraid of negative opinions, whether it is your "art" or your behavior. And most of all, if someone or someones decide to single you out as a punching bag, make sure they remember the experience... as a negative.
Good luck in whatever you decide to do. I never saw you as mentally ill or whatever, just as a guy who liked to get excitable every now and again.
Bon Voyage.
-Ninj |
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Rough
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Registered: Feb 2002
Posts: 1829 |
someone hacked his account? |
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maestro
Registered: Mar 2004
Posts: 727 |
well good luck bamu and hope you get sorted!!!
maybe you can come back someday with a more grown up approach and then you wont get bombarded by so many people
always remember this!!! an opinion is an opinion no matter wether you agree or not!!! point is to listen and learn!! speak when you need to and stay quiet when you dont!!!
as you grow up and get older youll look back on some things here and youll have a good giggle at yourself!!!
try not to take things so serious and try and enjoy life!!
bye!! |
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Soren
Registered: Dec 2001
Posts: 547 |
@Bamu: a break might be a good idea... I guess this all turned out a bit ugly. ending with lots of us not writing very nice things. But I think you know about the behavior-stuff and how it affects others.
I myself need to be less of an asshole. But if someone pisses me off, I easily get triggered by that.
I don't know your reasons for your way of acting in here, and
I don't need to know. Seems like it to me that all you had to do was to have a different way of approaching people... a less-provocative way might be an idea.
Well, I'm done with all this hatred stuff for now, I simply can not bother anymore. There are much more important things for me to spend my time on.
Be well!
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Burglar
Registered: Dec 2004
Posts: 1089 |
this is the first post I read of you that makes sense. finally. I hope you get your stuff sorted, and when you do... the c64 scene is not so aggressive as you might think now. |
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Yodelking
Registered: Apr 2002
Posts: 189 |
In my eyes you are welcome back anytime, hopefully you feel a lot better when you do.
And like the others say I hope you grow up a bit, but I also hope that all those who complained no matter what you do also grow up.
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Laxity
Registered: Aug 2005
Posts: 459 |
Get well, and no hard feelings dude. Eventhough it's been rough at time, I think you've contributed with some good stuff and good ideas too, so don't feel all bad about it. Cheers! |
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