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Intensity
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Schizophrenia
Hi People!
Herewith I want to say sorry for my strange post about a hunger-strike some time ago, also for my weird behaviour towards the dutch group Xenon where I was in as musician.
Sander/Focus, Gerard Hultink: Please excuse my messages in which I declared Xenon as a dangerous group and that you should be aware of it's members.
The reason for this behaviour is that I fell ill. They call my illness "Schizophrenia", also "Psychosis", a disease which initiated a lot of paranoid thoughts in me. I also started to hear voices from my circle of acquaintances and to see hallicunations, like faces at the wall etc. Those voices and hallucinations ordered me to stay up the nights for about 4 months and to care about scene matters, among other things.
I have passed some months in hospital and I take several medicaments for about one year now. Things are going well, also have a job now.
I don't want you to have a pity on me, but I want the sceners especially those I bothered to excuse me.
Read more about my schizophrenia in Vandalism News #40 which was released recently.
http://c64.rulez.org/onslaught/vandalism40.zip
Yours,
Arman Behdad
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Hate Bush
Registered: Jul 2002
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"´Normal´ is STUPID,and I don´t think it should be human´s goal in life.
Real (lethal) violance ought to be treated,though."
If you're deviant, you don't necessarily need to be explicitly wrong & nasty to hurt someone. Just think about people closely related to you, especially your wife and children (if you have them, that is). If you truly love'em, you will most probably undergo a 'curing' treatment at your own request. It's easy to shout out "FUCK THE SYSTEM AND THE MASSES, I AM WHO I AM!" when you have no one to care about.
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Cruzer
Registered: Dec 2001
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Remember that "laughter is the best medicine". Unless you have a real disease of course, in that case it might be a good idea to do what the doctor says. |
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Linus
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Word, Randall! |
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Tch
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I didn´t mean to hurt anyone,just expressing my thoughts.
Ofcourse some people have to take their medicines.
And I am happy to see,that it helps people live their lives a bit easier.
But what I find very disturbing is how easily children are labeled autistic/hyper-active/etc. and put onto medication.
I have Aspergers Syndrom (´autism-light´) and I am pretty much on my own,most of the time.
And that is actually the way I like it.
Visiting people (including family) is something I rarely do.
I am a very boring person and I don´t want to bore the rest too much. ;) |
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drake
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my 2 brothers-in-law do have adhd (hyper active) and if they don't take their medicine they are so fucking hyper you can't handle them. on the other side, with these heavy medicines they can't do stuff like driving a car. so there are practical problems too.
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Intensity
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Quote: I didn´t mean to hurt anyone,just expressing my thoughts.
Ofcourse some people have to take their medicines.
And I am happy to see,that it helps people live their lives a bit easier.
But what I find very disturbing is how easily children are labeled autistic/hyper-active/etc. and put onto medication.
I have Aspergers Syndrom (´autism-light´) and I am pretty much on my own,most of the time.
And that is actually the way I like it.
Visiting people (including family) is something I rarely do.
I am a very boring person and I don´t want to bore the rest too much. ;)
Just visit me one time here in Wiesbaden, I don't think you will bore me than and that we can have good time! :D
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Intensity
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Quote: Nice to hear that medication works (even though I guess they might have some undesirable side effects too? ...as monk hinted at.)
The things I take have thanks to god no side effects. I am very well attuned to those medicaments. But I had to go through a hard time to achieve that, almost tried every psychotropics there is and passed about 16 months (in all) in hospital.
However, I have never given up myself. I never had a suicide attempt, a lot of bolstering friends and familiy visited me in the hospital and I never have given up hope to be 100% healthy one time again. Think positive! That's my "secret recipe" :D The result of my attitude were that most of my hardest symptoms were killed through alternative treatmeant like praying, believing etc. Where there's a will there's a way I'd say. Even if I had nearly EVERYTHING you can have in this Schizophrenia illness.
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Tristan
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I took Zyprexa for a little while. Not for Schizo but for mood-disorder. This drug has recently been banned in the states, I think. go google cuz I am lazy and in a bad mood.
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TDJ
Registered: Dec 2001
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There was this girl on Dutch television last week who had 7 voices in their head with their own personalities, constantly discussing matters with her and eachother .. at the end she said that, although they made things rather hard sometimes, she would never want to miss them. Real brave girl to speak out like that in the open. Just like Arman is real brave to speak out here. |
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Intensity
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Thanks Marco! :D
Well, I have no problems in being opened about my matter al all. There more ppl know about it, the more I can discuss about it and I can learn from it. And the fastest I can get rid of this illness, the better. And I am 100% sure that I will be completley healthy one time.
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